Sunday, February 24
WWWWWHHHHHYYYYYYY
WHY THE ACTUAL FUCK AM I SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW? What because I just saw that eddie redmayne has a gf? What, because you two are so close and you really had a chance with him, right? You pathetic fuck jesus christ. How all the songs on your ipod bring back memories of a life you used to live when you were happy and had actual friends and people actually knew you existed and wanted to be with you? You are lazy, thats all it is, lazy, unable to make life better just because aw, its hard. POOR BABY. yea, maybe the potential is in me somewhere, but how am in the world is it ever going to see the light of day if you dont man the fuck up and take chances? jesus christ. im shaking with so much anger! anger in myself! why am i so pathetic? Why do i need someone so badly to be with me.... anyone really.... just so im not with myself anymore...
Saturday, February 23
Movies aka My Life
Seriously, they have become my life, how I live. Or rather they have for a while. Anyways, perpetuating my bad habits, I need gush over a couple great movies...
Hick. Wow. Unexpectedly intense and, wow. wow. Ed does a fantastic job as a well meaning guy with some seriously messed up undertones. Blake is incredible! I think she made the movie. Shes fabulous but so very sad inside. Chloe is so interesting as an actress, she has such a presence, but I just dont know if this what the right role for her. She kind of made the movie go back and forth from goofy to serious in a strange way that didn't work. And wow Alec was such a curveball at the end! I literally laughed out loud. Unexpected. I'm so impressed/obsessed with ed tho, guys its a problem. You can just see little bits of him underneath his character... hes so vulnerable on stage.... I dont know hes just really believable. And attractive...I was noticing his face, especially mouth is really similar to my first boyfriends..hm. I was thinkng of that movie strawdogs with alex skarsgard, how hes a foreigner like ed and yet they both play deep south rednecks, really messed up ones at that, they both rape girls... wait wow thats so strange. Is that a conception of deep southern americans that foreigners have? Why are they drawn to the role. I wonder if they enjoy playing such depraved souls. i bet its exciting, because you have to understand their frame of mind to act it. You get to see what is really inside you.
Next is snow white and the huntsman. Got bad reviews, like Hick, but god i loved it. So medieval and dark and theatrical in all the right ways. Kristen I think was picked for the role because of her darkness and seriousness, but she just doesnt inspire as the princess who will save us all... they say "she is life itself" but she hardly breaks a smile the whole movie. The character could have used little warmth to show us that. Chris, hes just fantastic at everything he does, he plays the stereotypical hero really well in all his movies. Charlize, well obviously is incredible. That guy who plays william, who is he? Hes amazing wow. The dynamic they set up between chris and kristen is so interesting and not really defined, you have to take the clues... does he just like her because she reminds him of his wife? Is he thinkng of his wife when he kisses her? And maybe he just likes the life that she breathes back into him, that power of hers. And because of stewarts stone face its hard to tell how she feels about him, but you get a hint at the very end - he comes into the room and she looks surprised then really happy to see him. Maybe there is some love there after all. Because it was only true love that could break the spell! It makes you wonder what exactly will come after the end of the movie. Will they get together? Really great.
I also saw mona lisa smile recently, i love it, art history, womens rights, the role of women, old universities... cool. I also saw the avengers...ahem...im really am too old for it but im incredibly obsessed with tom hiddleson. obserrrrrsed. whenever i see f. scott fitzgerald's name i think of him hahah. its neat to see all these grown up actors acting in a childrens movie, i wonder what that is like, to act less mature than they really are, or to leave so much out... im sure if they were fighting aliens in real life there would be a lot of expletives.. what is it like when they are all hanging out? I've always wondered that, what famous actors are like when they are hanging with each other... maybe Ill become a famous actor and find out...
I think my arch is collapsing because my entire heel is numb. its kind of exciting i wonder if ill need surgery! then ill have a story to tell. also my counselor was listening to me blab away and said, you know it sounds like you have all these hopes and dreams and people say you seem outgoing at first, and you want to skydive and travel around the world... maybe you are actually outgoingISH and its just inside you right now. It so interesting, I think she is right. Why am I so bubbly when I first meet people? Why dont i get someone and go travel around the world on a sailboat? Why dont I hitch to hollywood and hook up with some gorgeous people and learn all their secrets? Why dont I do acid? Why dont I go skydiving, learn how to surf, learn how to horseback ride, learn how to play the african drums? WHy the heck do you want to sit at a desk all day and study art history? boring as hell jesus. I really REALLY hope I can do this, I can find the strength in myself, I know, I really hope it is there somewhere, or rather, I hope I find it, and that I can do all the things ive always wanted, and can really live. I hope there is a life out there for me somewhere.
-Summer
Hick. Wow. Unexpectedly intense and, wow. wow. Ed does a fantastic job as a well meaning guy with some seriously messed up undertones. Blake is incredible! I think she made the movie. Shes fabulous but so very sad inside. Chloe is so interesting as an actress, she has such a presence, but I just dont know if this what the right role for her. She kind of made the movie go back and forth from goofy to serious in a strange way that didn't work. And wow Alec was such a curveball at the end! I literally laughed out loud. Unexpected. I'm so impressed/obsessed with ed tho, guys its a problem. You can just see little bits of him underneath his character... hes so vulnerable on stage.... I dont know hes just really believable. And attractive...I was noticing his face, especially mouth is really similar to my first boyfriends..hm. I was thinkng of that movie strawdogs with alex skarsgard, how hes a foreigner like ed and yet they both play deep south rednecks, really messed up ones at that, they both rape girls... wait wow thats so strange. Is that a conception of deep southern americans that foreigners have? Why are they drawn to the role. I wonder if they enjoy playing such depraved souls. i bet its exciting, because you have to understand their frame of mind to act it. You get to see what is really inside you.
Next is snow white and the huntsman. Got bad reviews, like Hick, but god i loved it. So medieval and dark and theatrical in all the right ways. Kristen I think was picked for the role because of her darkness and seriousness, but she just doesnt inspire as the princess who will save us all... they say "she is life itself" but she hardly breaks a smile the whole movie. The character could have used little warmth to show us that. Chris, hes just fantastic at everything he does, he plays the stereotypical hero really well in all his movies. Charlize, well obviously is incredible. That guy who plays william, who is he? Hes amazing wow. The dynamic they set up between chris and kristen is so interesting and not really defined, you have to take the clues... does he just like her because she reminds him of his wife? Is he thinkng of his wife when he kisses her? And maybe he just likes the life that she breathes back into him, that power of hers. And because of stewarts stone face its hard to tell how she feels about him, but you get a hint at the very end - he comes into the room and she looks surprised then really happy to see him. Maybe there is some love there after all. Because it was only true love that could break the spell! It makes you wonder what exactly will come after the end of the movie. Will they get together? Really great.
I also saw mona lisa smile recently, i love it, art history, womens rights, the role of women, old universities... cool. I also saw the avengers...ahem...im really am too old for it but im incredibly obsessed with tom hiddleson. obserrrrrsed. whenever i see f. scott fitzgerald's name i think of him hahah. its neat to see all these grown up actors acting in a childrens movie, i wonder what that is like, to act less mature than they really are, or to leave so much out... im sure if they were fighting aliens in real life there would be a lot of expletives.. what is it like when they are all hanging out? I've always wondered that, what famous actors are like when they are hanging with each other... maybe Ill become a famous actor and find out...
I think my arch is collapsing because my entire heel is numb. its kind of exciting i wonder if ill need surgery! then ill have a story to tell. also my counselor was listening to me blab away and said, you know it sounds like you have all these hopes and dreams and people say you seem outgoing at first, and you want to skydive and travel around the world... maybe you are actually outgoingISH and its just inside you right now. It so interesting, I think she is right. Why am I so bubbly when I first meet people? Why dont i get someone and go travel around the world on a sailboat? Why dont I hitch to hollywood and hook up with some gorgeous people and learn all their secrets? Why dont I do acid? Why dont I go skydiving, learn how to surf, learn how to horseback ride, learn how to play the african drums? WHy the heck do you want to sit at a desk all day and study art history? boring as hell jesus. I really REALLY hope I can do this, I can find the strength in myself, I know, I really hope it is there somewhere, or rather, I hope I find it, and that I can do all the things ive always wanted, and can really live. I hope there is a life out there for me somewhere.
-Summer
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