I've just had a woodchuck and I'm an actual psychological mess. I'm just crying over things and seeing pictures of guys that I want so so badly but of course I can never have because theyre celebrities, like Peter Sarsgard, Russel Crowe, Christian Bale, Alexander Skarsgard, Tom Hiddleston, Paul Walker, a young Harrison Ford, John Rhys Mayer like insanely crazily... I dont know whyyyyy. why are there attractive guys in this world that i cant have? who decides who gets them? how do you meet them? how do you meet guys? People say its hard to meet people outside college and if im having a hard time now i dont know what ill do.
I had a big paper due today and i wrote the entire thing today too. Well, I didn't even finish it. I had so much time beforehand to do it, I just , I think I like that feeling of almost not making it, its the only way i can make my life exciting. how pathetically sad. im going to bed.
