Current obsession: harry potter. I know, a little slow on the uptake, but ive only seen a couple movies and i read all the books obsessively, i loved them. Ive watched them all up to the phoeni one. Ive also watched all the youtube vids about cast interviews, behind the scenes, bloopers, etc. it's so cute, they're really a great bunch of people, down to earth even with all their fame. I love tom felton, hes so bubbly, and mat lewis is the epitome of the good things that puberty can do. And hearing them talk about their experience, growing up on set, it's interesting, cause theyre like, yea itll always be a big part of my life, it shaped who i am. and then they always talk about the people, how thats the one things theyll miss, the one thing that they loved about the whole experience. And I think thats very interesting. I mean theyre all the same age as me, at the same place.Where would they be if they didnt audition for this movie? Maybe in a situation similar to mine. It makes me wish that my parents put me into a situation, forced me, put their foot down, made me do some sort of activity that would stay with me all my life, something that gave me a good group of people that i could lean on for the rest of my life. I mean, school, i guess. another reason why you should never homeschool your kids - it messes up their development, interaction with peers is vital. Anyways, maybe its a testament to my strageness, how ive been with peers all my life, except for the last two years, and ive still turned out like this. funny story i saw my old (only) boyfriend out the window of the library today, he was far away but i could tell it was him, golden locks, longboard and all, and even though it was only for maybe 10 seconds i felt my heart just surge... those old feeling of being in a relationship came back and they were feelings i havn't felt in a while... i almost cired. Not for him, but for those feelings. i long for those feelings again, even though theyre not all happy ones. Relationships are so important, ad i can feel that part of me missing. Maybe THAT is whats missing. thats why im so messed up.